Considering the Flowers

2025 has been quite the year. It started off with an unexpected pregnancy, and then taking a break from my studies, and then moving back in with my parents and actually admitting to them that I need them more than what I let them know. I honestly thought I was hitting rock bottom, but in reality, 2025 has been my turning point.

As I was tending to my flowers this afternoon, I realized that just like them, I need to cut off all the negativity and sadness in my life. Once my flowers wilt, or turn brown, they get haircuts. And it’s sad sometimes to see something so beautiful start to die. But what’s even more beautiful is to see it grow back, happier and healthier. I want my life to be surrounded by positivity and happiness, and by taking care of myself, I feel better. Part of finding out who I am means allowing myself to grow in unexpected places. I never thought that I would be into gardening, and now it’s one of the hobbies I have that brings me the most joy.

When I spend time with my flowers, I am consumed with possibilities. I can cut off old friends of mine, and allow myself to make new ones. I can face my fears of confrontation and turn them into having healthy conversations with the people I love. I am finally able to see a glimpse of hope that when I accidentally drown myself, or when I’m not in a growing season, that I will eventually come back as beautiful as ever.

Speaking of accidentally drowning, one of my flowers is currently having a hard time bouncing back. My red gerbera daisy has been stuck only growing leaves, and no flowers. I repotted him to give him some more space to grow, but I think he was over-watered in the storms last week. So, I’m trying to give him a little extra care by bringing him inside if it’s gonna rain, and putting him in the sun to dry his soil a little bit. You know, he hasn’t been watered in a week and his soil is still wet… I wonder if I just keep trimming leaves and making room he might grow at least one more flower before the end of the season?

And my snapdragons are absolutely beautiful! I got them from my grandma, and one of them was mostly dead… I thought there was no coming back. But, I trimmed her, and watered her, and for a while she still wasn’t growing any flowers. Then all of a sudden there was one bloom on her! She was red? I got her and she was purple? Anyways, fast forward to a week of loving on her for growing a flower, there were at least 10 more blooms on her! I think it was the positive talking to her.

Have you seen those studies? People have studied that if you have a positive speech to flowers they grow better. Maybe I should try that with my red daisy? I don’t know if there’s any real science behind it, but I think it adds to being like flowers. We grow in positivity and care towards ourselves.

Well anyways, let’s have a positive end to July!

Love, Meg